I can’t believe this year is almost over. We have less than a month until 2014 and there’s still so much for me to do! I always like to do a year end review just to take a second and reflect on what has happened over the last 12 months. Here we go:
-We Survived Job Loss: Husband left his job and then was unable to find another one, which left us on one income for 11 months. This was the hardest time of my life. Not knowing how we were going to keep the lights on, when we would be able to buy groceries and praying our cars would run on gas fumes for just a few more miles was tough. It also tested our relationship and the relationship with our families. It all worked out in the end, but there are wounds that still have not been closed.
-I survived being homesick: I was homesick for the last year. It completely took me by surprise, but looking back it makes sense. My world was falling apart around me when Husband left his job and I just wanted the comfort of my old home near family. Last week I woke up and it was like a fog had been lifted. I felt good about our awesome apartment, I felt good about living in Los Angeles, I felt good. And I realized that I hadn’t felt homesick for a few weeks. I think my homesickness is finally retreating and I’m really starting to appreciate all of the things that made us move in the first place.
-I learned to like my job: I just touched on this, but I had to come to accept my role as an Executive Assistant. Is this where I’ll be in five years? Maybe. Maybe not. But in the last 6 months my job responsibilities have increased and I have a clearly defined role now. I’ve started feeling good about coming to work. I hope this one lasts!
-I published my first book: This is a major one. Despite being severly homesick, stressed and depressed this year, I was able to finally publish my first book. It’s just a testament to what perseverance and hope will do for you! I’m 7 chapters into my second book and I’m hoping that I can publish two more in 2014.
-We got married: This was a crazy, drama filled adventure but in the end our wedding was beautiful and we were both incredibly happy. I’m so lucky to have Husband. ♥
I feel like 2013 was the year of survival and personal growth. We faced so much and….I’m just incredibly grateful that we came out ok and are now able to start bouncing back. The above list is just a highlight of all of the things we went through, and I’m shaking my head now as I think about everything. The saying “What doesn’t kill you will make you stronger” has never rang more true than right now.
I’m looking forward to 2014 and I’m dreading it, too. What if more bad things happen? What if we have another hellish roller coaster year? Despite my anxiety, I know I can always reflect on this post and be reminded that eventually, everything will be all right.