Food for Thought

I want to start treating my body as a temple.

There. I said it.

The fact of the matter is I’m too practical and rational to be doing otherwise.

Taking care of your body is extremely important. Courtesy of

Having things “in order” is important to me in all aspects of my life. So why not my health? Can you prevent sickness? Maybe or maybe not. The point is arming yourself with what you need to get through it.

My body is an amazing mechanism and I’ve been treating it like crap. Its time to start loving myself. Last time, I talked about finding spiritual balance. That’s part of loving your body too. Stress, worry, anxiety…all can bring on unwanted disease. Having a spiritual outlet can help.

So what does this mean? I’m starting a boot camp revamp. I want to move a little more, meditate a little more, and eat a little cleaner. Something just to show my body I appreciate her.


On a NaNoWriMo note:

3 days until the writing begins! I’m stoked. I have a story idea, today I’ll be writing a janky quick outline and bam! I’ll starting writing first thing November 1st.

For all those writers out there, have you participated in NaNoWriMo before? How do you get yourself organized?

I’m trying a different approach: I’ll be using a spreadsheet to track my outline points and the number of words in each point. Since I’m motivated by visuals, seeing a word count add up will definitely help me.

And things I have learned since the last time I tried NaNoWriMo:

1) The story doesn’t have to make sense. You just write to meet the word count and then start worrying about what the heck you wrote after Nov. 30.

2) You should be having fun. There’s nothing as unmotivating as making yourself do something you don’t want to do. If I stop having fun during this process, I’ll throw in the towel and start again next year. No stress.

3) Get out and write at write-ins. Being social helps keep you motivated and you might make some great connections. Who knows? Your future best friend might be at that Starbucks frantically typing away.

I’ll be sure to post updates as I start chipping away at my 50,000 word challenge!


I’m super excited.

Every year, on November 1st thousands of writers get together online and in person to embark on the quest of writing a novel in thirty days.

The challenge: To write 50,000 words (without cheating and writing ahead).

The prize: Satisfaction and bragging rights for a year.

I can’t begin to tell you how pumped I am for this.

At first, I thought about cheating and finishing my first draft on my first book. But after banging my head against the wall for the last few months, I think it’s time to take a break from those characters and have fun writing something else for a month.

I already have my idea for my 50k story. As I move through the challenge, I’ll be updating this blog with snippets from my journal on how things are going, along with excerpts here and there.

Wish me luck!

Some stuff on spirituality

I think the first step with self-improvement begins within. And I think I’ve been looking at “enjoying” life backwards.

I had a dream last night about missing a train to see the rest of my family. I was waiting for my mother to hurry up in Wal-Mart (I know, I know) and she was taking her sweet time. Finally, we made it to the train station but it was too late. I was frustrated and disappointed, but when I asked my mother if she cared, she shrugged and said nope. We fell asleep waiting for the next train and when I woke I was surprised to find all of my family asleep in the station next to me with the sun shining on them.

To see a train in your dream represents conformity. You are just going along with what everyone else is doing. Alternatively, a train means that you are very methodical. You need to lay things out specifically and do things in an orderly and sequential manner. In particular, if you see a freight train, then it refers to the burdens and problems that you are hauling around.

To dream that you miss a train denotes missed opportunities. It also suggests that you are ill-prepared for a new phase in your life. You may be procrastinating or putting things off that should have already been completed.

To dream that you at a train station represents a transitional period in your life. You need to take a short break to reassess your situation and determine your path and goals.

So what does this mean?

Having goals is great. My current goals are a good start, but I think they are numbered wrong. Instead of focusing on the superficial (money/debt, career advancement, weight), I would like to try to start with my spirituality. As I said before, I’m not into the big three religions. Instead, I find myself gravitating towards “New Age-y” stuff. I love tarot cards, runes, Herbalism, and meditation.

Anyway, my main goal these next few weeks will be working on my inner “me”.  And hopefully, my musings will inspire someone else to look and work on the inside.

How have you appreciate what you have right now?

The Plan

Self Improvement Wish List

I’m a list maker. I love lists. They let me know what needs to be done in a no-nonsense fashion. This of course meant I would need to make a list for my self-improvement plan. Over however long it takes, I would like:

  1. To get out of credit card debt. Yeah. I’m so over credit cards. We (boyfriend and I) acquired about  debt moving from Iowa to California to pursue our artistic callings. Smart plan? I don’t know yet. Expensive as hell? Absolutely. And my own personal credit card is almost maxed out. I am far too cheap to want to pay anything back, let alone with interest. I would like to pay off these cards, and then put them in a secret place where they only come out to breathe during spring cleaning and emergencies.On another note: My father (and my most trusted financial advisor) once told me that student loan debt was some of the best debt you can have if you pay it on time. That advice stuck with me. Yes, it will be a pain to pay it off. But it was a personal investment in myself. All you other 20-somethings out there with this type of debt? Have no fear. As long as you’re making your payments on time, you are showing the creditors you are reliable.
  1. To lose weight. Being overweight is not only unhealthy, it is EXPENSIVE. Since I’ve gained weight, I’ve had to shut down 90 % of my wardrobe because I can’t fit it. And I don’t have the money to buy a new wardrobe. Oh, and let’s not get started on all the money I throw away on bon-bons, Snicker bars and Ho-hos. My eating out has gotten out of control. Imagine how much faster I could pay off my credit cards by actually cutting back on eating out. Let’s not forget that I’m not making enough income anymore to support my fat habit.
  1. To work on my Spiritual well-being. I am not religious. At all. I won’t burst into flames if you throw holy water on me, but my local hang out spots do not include mosques, temples, or churches. I would just like to meditate and self-reflect more. I think sometimes I get into a want, want, want mode of mind instead of appreciating and being grateful for what I do have. I would also like to volunteer and help others.
  1. To finish my book. It’s a small book for young adults and it’s currently 35,000 words long. I’d like to finish it and self-publish it. I honestly don’t have big plans for it, but it would be nice to see it on my bookshelf all done.


There. That’s it. Not too bad, right? Actually, that’s a boat load of self-improvement. Most people pick one goal (i.e. fitness) and work on that for years. Here I have four. What can I say? As a large chested gal, I’m a firm (pun intended) believer in the idea: GO BIG OR GO HOME. My boyfriend and the state of Texas would be proud.

Anyway, I think if I tackle small goals within these goals I can start writing them off my list. This of course goes against every self-improvement article I’ve read. What you’re supposed to do is focus on one goal and give it your all. The thought behind this is if you stretch yourself too thin you will probably fail.

That may be so. But those four things are screaming for attention right now. I’m not trying to be perfect. I am just trying to start sending a little energy to each of those areas. Nothing big. If you in the audience find me starting to become OCD and over the top about working to those goals, feel free to send me a virtual slap upside the head.

Oh, by the way: Do you have any self-improvement goals? What are you strategies?

The Beginning

I need a little self-improvement.  (Notice how I say that like one would say, “I need a little cream for my coffee). Seriously. Self-improvement. Not in a bad way, but in a good way.

Let me explain.

I’m 24 years old. My acquaintances and family all think that I’m responsible, talented, loving, caring, yadda yadda yadda. They’ve been telling me that for years. They all think that I’m going to be a big hit some day, doing something I love with passion and fervor. My mother is banking on me buying her a house. My father is banking on being able to brag big time to his friends about me. And my sister is banking on me opening up doors for her to succeed.

Boy, if I really was a bank, my family and acquaintances would be BROKE.

I have no confidence these days. Out of all the things I have accomplished and can list quite easily on paper (graduating on time, securing a job during this harsh economy to support myself, not being pregnant or on drugs), I really don’t hold pride in any of those things. I did them because I had to, not because I wanted to.  I went to school because my parents expected it. I secured a job because I needed money and am not the daughter of a wealthy family. I’m not pregnant because I have a fear of vaginal tearing. And so forth.

Here’s the real picture:

I am an underpaid, college educated 24-year-old with no savings, and debt. I have a fear of my own talents because they are not ‘original’. Why bother writing when someone out there can do it better, right? I am overweight by an even 50 pounds. I don’t have any close friends, no hobbies and no social networks to speak of. I rely entirely on my boyfriend to provide me with love, entertainment, emotional and mental support. And that’s not good. Come on. He’s a GUY. He can only do so much in the support arena.

Let’s not forget, I am bored. Out of my skull. The aforementioned ‘problems’ I have are no fun at all. They are the harsh realities that kick me when I’m sleeping and are staring me in the face when I wake.

So! I decided I would create this blog. Maybe I can change my young life for the better. And at least if I write down my misadventures someone out there in audience land will get a laugh out of it. Either way, it will be a win-win situation.

Let’s get started…